It's been awhile

It has been a long time, well for me. Everything has happened so fast in such a short period span that I don't even know where I stand. I was so jumbled up in the mess and it just fucked me up. But it's ok I'm getting my shit together now. I'm starting to grasp the reality of things. Sometimes I don't understand what I need to do or what I have to do. I get lost and lonely, and even more stressed. Sick is what I got, but sick could only show my physical emotion. I want to just burst out onto this page but I can't. As much as I want to let everything out I keep myself from doing so. For reasons I don't know. I need to let go of things. Time will only tell I guess.