Are we back at this again lol?

It's been awhile

It has been a long time, well for me. Everything has happened so fast in such a short period span that I don't even know where I stand. I was so jumbled up in the mess and it just fucked me up. But it's ok I'm getting my shit together now. I'm starting to grasp the reality of things. Sometimes I don't understand what I need to do or what I have to do. I get lost and lonely, and even more stressed. Sick is what I got, but sick could only show my physical emotion. I want to just burst out onto this page but I can't. As much as I want to let everything out I keep myself from doing so. For reasons I don't know. I need to let go of things. Time will only tell I guess.

I really don't know where it's going

I don't at all. All I know is that I am happy when I am with you. Things come and go, but you for some reason was just so random. Where it is going to go, I'm here to give you something no one else has.

I miss us and I feel that we are drifting apart.

Car plans.

Ok not a blog about my love life this time, just letting you know in advance.

Checklist comes back again. It seems like if I do one of these they usually falls through with everything that I want.

1.) Go power 3in exhaust
2.) CF trunk
3.) Status seats
4.) Nardi Wood wheel.
5.) JDM push start and hazard button
6.) New Rims not sure yet
7.) J's Racing Diffuser
8.) Ported/polished Intake manifold
9.) Powder coated valve cover
10.) J's reinforcement bars
11.) Kidd racing header.
12.) NST pullies
13.) 595 rsr Tires
14.) Relocated battery
15.) CF Mugen spark plug cover
16.) CF Cooling plate
17.) J's oil cap.
18.) Hybrid racing fuel rail
19.) RDX injectors
10.) NRG harness bar/
21.) Takata Harness.

wow too much stuff, but I think I can do it.

So I'm sitting here, literally in a place where I didn't know I would ever be back. Especially since everything has happened, but something always seems to pull me back. Open arms as I said, but open arms can only go so far. Just a little quick bloggy blog. Things are getting better, the suns shines through the clouds, but droplets still fall.

Shitter

I am literally sitting on the shitter as we speak right now. Feels good I might say but a busy weekend for me. 2 finals to study for, and a whole lot of conventions to attend. My aunts birthday is today, Olive's birthday is today, study study study, and maybe Eibach lol. It seems like everything is getting better each day, but at the same time it's hurting even more. It's hard, but things are going to get better all of sudden. Let it soak now so later you wont absorb anymore. Good day folks, good day.