Routine.

Not the routine for school or work, but the routine with you. What was funny is that on thursday it would be either you or me going to see the other person. Tonight I forgot we weren't dating, and for some reason I had hopes of you coming home today. That was a mistake. This in a way broke me down even more then I have been, and the sad thing about it is that I drove by your house to see if your car was parked. That might seem like a stalker move lol but for some reason I just thought ... By the end of the night, my emptiness seems to be bigger then what it had been. Stupid me then thought of something too ridiculous ... a phone call. I missed you so much that I had to call just to hear your voice. It seems like I can't go a few weeks or even days without hearing you, but these past weeks have been the longest time since years ago. It felt nice to hear you, even if you didn't know it was me, or if you even thought it would be me. I miss you, but I need to get over this. God please help me.